There were times where I thought my dad would get up and leave because he is a very stubborn man, you see. I guess that where my sisters and I get it from. it was difficult of course but it was also refreshing to get everything out on the table but then again having your heart on your sleeve makes it a lot easier to have it ripped off. 

That also caused me to be A LOT more cautious in they was that I express my feeling to different people. And when something that I have been supressed for a long time come up, words just flood out of my mouth causing the person in front of me to end up feeling extremely awkward which ends up with everything becoming worse.

The only thing I'm dreading is that we have one of those God-awful meet ups and my nans house with the whole family tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it. I'm telling you now though if anyone asks me about it, I'm shutting them down straight away. I'm never told about their family affairs so why should I tell them about mine?

But anyways lets just hope I survive.

Maya xx

To everyone saying that because Kanye performed alone at Glastonbury this showed of his egotistical side. Well guess fucking what, Ed Sheeran performs live all by himself with no one else on stage. But noooooooooo, no one would ever call Ed Sheeran egoistical for doing that. 

I get that Ed Sheeran is super lovely in interviews so people naturally love him but all Kanye does in interviews is speak the truth, which in fact I think is better than be all lovely because it shows that he's not afraid. Of course I'm saying you should be kind but isn't honestly the best policy.

Overall I loved Kanye's performance at Glastonbury. It's started off amazing and I was jammin, then there was a small dip of him playing around with the auto tune but he brought straight back up with the cherry picker and I bloody loved it.

Anyone who knows me knows that I love Kanye West and I will defend him till the day I die. 

Kanye West makes amazing music and doesn't give shit, which is all I could ever need in an artist.

Maya xx

Dear all the white boys at my school think they can rap,

Just because you can speak fast in a weird voice doesn't mean you're the next Tupac

Regards 

Maya xx

Are you fucking kidding me?!?! 

hope that helped all you unsocialables like me :)

Maya xx

They always go on about how I'm weird because I don't have any friends that are boys(even though I do) but as soon and they see me texting a boy or talking about a boy they automatically assume he's my boyfriend

THIS IS WHY I DONT FUCKING TELL YOU ABOUT BOYS OH MY GOD R U DUMB FAM

MODELS! WHY NO TITS?!

Now that may sound weird but let me explain okay. After going to the exhibition and seeing the runways then going onto the Dolce and Gabbana website for...research, I've realised models have no breast to the point where the clothes don't even look attractive not just the model. I understand its not all about the model, it's about the clothes but with the girls figures the clothes just look as if they are hanging off them. 

I know some models don't eat as much as a normal woman should do and that is one thing that turns me off about the fashion world. Plus obviously if they don't eat they lose weight therefore lose tits but there should be at least so sort of shape to those women. And no I will not accept beanpole as a shape. 

Then again when you look at me I'm a girl who is quite tall with a fast metabolism with maybe a small dream of going into the modelling world. What more could they want?

I feel that in order to show the clothes in a more beautiful way is to have maybe a skinny girl-because we don't want to move too fast, the fashion world may be extreme but it is still fragile-but with maybe a B-cup breast, C-cup at most rather than being a AA-cup(we're talking M&S sizes) with the physical body of my twelve year old self, just very stretched out and alot more pale, they should have some sort of curve to their legs defining the calf from the thigh.

I don't know though maybe that's just my opinion. I just think that in order to show off the clothes the models should have a small something to show off themselves. Whatever it's late, I'm tired and I'm going to go to sleep. Ciao bella.

Maya xx

P.s the Alexander McQueen exhibition is incredible and I highly recommend for anyone to go. The designs are incredible.